i got professional...i think water colors! as in, NOT CRAYOLA! and i got copic markers (just black) they are to outline my art. umm, i have faggot paintbrushes that i got from walmart in the kids section ._. the nearest art store with REAL art stuff is like 20 miles away. so ill just have these for now. but hey! they get the job done lol

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this is the tournament im entering...only one day left, but i was suppose to advertise it..so there ._.

MUA-HA-HA-HA-HAH!!! in yo' face shibbyXrain! i totally got me a subscription...by my self! D:< i was really mad that i was not included because i thought that i was worthy enough to, "put it to good use" as according to shibby -glares- so i totally got one and its a full year one so meh! -sticks tongue out-

P DOUBLE MEGA SSSSS: sorry, i was just totally hurt when you said that you dumb fool, so i got one myself -hmph-

1. Blink
2. Wedding
3. Fantasy
4. Lock and Key
5. Heart
6. Poison
7. Fairy
8. Panties
9. Stitch
10. Manga/Comic Strip
11. Dragon
12. Mario
13. Edgar Allen Poe
14. Mask
15. Sword
16. Web
17. Vampire
18. Zodiac
19. Bones
20. Phoenix
21. Deviantart
22. Eygptian
23. Anthro
24. Cosplay
25. Chains
26. Action
27. Chibi
28. After A Battle
29. Art Trade
30. Original Character
31. Realitic
32. Moonlight
33. Holiday
34. One Shape
35. Fruit
36. Midnight
37. Elf
38. Pageviews
39. Henshin (Transformation)
40. Fear
41. Under Water
42. Future
43. Mascot
44. Wings
45. New Art Medium
46. During A Battle
47. Vortex
48. Progress
49. Upside Down
50. Unseen
51. Flag
52. Princess
53. Prince
54. King
55. Queen
56. Sharp
57. Fading
58. No Color
59. Censored
60. East Meets West
61. Hologram
62. Tattoo
63. Dirt
64. Dinosaur
65. What If....
66. Portal
67. Lace
68. Envy
69. Study
70. End of the World
71. Graffiti
72. Silhouette
73. Robot
74. Tutorial
75. Death
76. Movie
77. Bird
78. Fun
79. Teeth
80. Jewelry
81. Anniversary
82. Fav TV Show
83. Chaos
84. Fashion
85. Wood
86. 86
87. Circle
88. Bunny
89. Ice Cream
90. Goth
91. Scar
92. Redesign
93. Fast
94. Stamp
95. Sparkle
96. X
97. ID
98. Buttons
99. Space
100. Rocket


yes, i am going to do this 100 themes challenge. i am determined and i know i can do it...hopefully less then 3 years. this will keep me busy and keep my art block at bay for good!!

Oh man..my heart feels like its going to explode. I'm feeling so much for a person. I'm so scared.. the year is coming to an end...im so sad my only friend will soon be leaving. He needs to live his own life. It will feel so wierd without him walking with me to school when i miss the bus, no one sitting with you on the bus, no one there to comfort you when your feeling oh so down. sure, i do have lots of other friends, but when this one leaves. my heart will have a hole in it, along with many others, it will soon join the others. soon to become a scar, just like other past experiences. But..i'm also so very happy! its a new beggining, I know he'll stay in touch, hopefully come and visit. I just experienced many situations like this. someone i care for so much, that i look up to a whole lot, leaves like nothing. doesnt even think about you in the day, when all day, you were thinking about that person all along. my mom did that to me. i loved her so much, always protected her. she left without saying "good-bye" or "i love you too" all she said was horrible things. i know this is much different, but i know it will feel the same. -sigh- im just exploding with so many emotions! im really excited..well, not really lol. it does seem that im mostly portraying negative emotions. but im really not, just kinda zoned out. ah well... we all go through rough times in our lives. ill just get through this. also, im really stressed out. my school work is catching up to me, and my grades art showin' it. its all easy, but just really time consuming, CURSE YOU AP CLASSES!!! -sigh- another thing i will be happy to experience ^_^; umm.. i also feel like im a mother O_O yes, its worse then ever! i know i do alot, but im going into it again! it really sux, common' isnt cooking everyday, cleaning everyday, washing everything all day, everyday enough?! OH NOOOOO i now am my brother's bank. i budget him, although he doesnt listen, im right in the end~ oh, and im going to a ball with my best friend Carlos. hes the friend thats leaving ;-;



-SUMMARY-basically, im scared that my best friend will leave, then eventually forget about me like my mom did. blah, blah, stress, stress...rant rant, then complaines about life

PS-->ill always give a summary if the journal is long